For the past few months I have been working so hard to lose weight. I have cut my calories literally in half and I have been dedicated and persistent when it has come to exercising.
As a result.....
I have lost 32 pounds! I have worked too damn hard to be humble or modest about the weight I have lost. I am so proud of myself for going as far as I have. If you know me at all you know how easy it is for me to give up. How easy it is for me to stuff my face when I'm not hungry, to choose chocolate over celery, to use food as a way to cope with stress. But here I am. Months later and 32 pounds lighter.
Looking in the mirror I have to be honest when saying I hardly noticed a difference. It wasn't until I got the annual picture of myself and Anna that her work takes every year at the company Christmas party that I truly was shocked at the change. I went to put the 2010 picture in the photo album and stumbled across the 2009 picture and boy did I notice! These pictures are grainy but you get the point...
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| Christmas Party 2009 |
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| Christmas Party 2010 |
I mean wow! Look at my face. My stomach too. I am totally impressed with myself. I have worked hard and results are apparent.
Now with all of that said, I have finally reached a plateau in my weight loss. One I am clueless on how to break. At one point I was losing about 1 to 2 pounds a week and now my scale is at a standstill. In the past 2 and a half weeks I have lost zero pounds. Zilch. Nada. ZERO! Not only that, my treadmill is on it's last life. It's workouts away from being totally dead.
I hate to say this but I feel on the edge of giving up. It's hard to go from working your ass off and getting results to working your ass off for nothing. I know everyone reaches this point and you just have to work through it but it's just so so so so SO hard. I have read testimonials from people who have been in my same position who said it took them 5 months to break the plateau. 5 months?! You have got to be kidding me. 5 months of sweating my ass off and saying no to my favorite dessert and nothing to show for it? Eff that.
I guess all I can do at this point is reflect, meditate, and continue to keep on keeping on. At least I can't go up if I keep pressing on. Right?
