Poem I wrote about my brother in law passing

This was written 5/16/08 after the death of my brother in law RD.
I was going to write more with it but this is all I have so far.




It came to me as such a shock,
when I listened to the words you had said.
There's no way it could be real,
he was just alive and now he's dead.

With a trembling hand,
and tears pouring out of my eyes.
I drove there as fast as I could,
letting God hear my desperate cries.

How could this be true?
I was with him the night before.
I wish I could have known,
what the future had had in store.

I pulled up to find a group of people,
huddled by his door.
But there you were away from them,
smoke in hand, eyes puffy and sore.

I ran to you,
as fast as my legs could go.
All I could do was hold you tight,
I had never seen you this low.

I decided I had to see him,
maybe there was something I could do.
There's still a chance that he's still there,
even though deep down I think I knew.

I walked up the stairs,
your hand firmly linked with mine.
There was nothing that could have prepared me for that moment,
where I knew things wouldn't be fine.

I saw him lying on the couch,
And I instantly fell to my knees.
Oh lord how could this be real?
Don't take him I beg you please.

I kept repeating his name,
In a wailing shaky cry,
Maybe he was only sleeping,
how could he just leave us and die?

I placed my hand on his arm,
and it was so cold for me to touch.
I stroked his hair and told him,
"RD, I love you so much."

I want to delete you as a friend

Have you ever been friends with someone on Facebook or Myspace who you wanted to delete as a friend? Is it just me? I mean you're put into a situation where they are your family or someone who likes you more than you like them. They requested to add you as a friend and you knew that not accepting that request would pretty much be an online slap in the face. So there you go adding them and you have to rethink every status update or keep it vague so they can't pinpoint who or what you are talking about. Then comes the comments to your status. You write "Going to go party tonight!" and they comment saying "Do you really think that's a good idea considering it's a Tuesday and all?" Of course it comes to mind to delete them. You think, I don't want them to see my life and I'm really not too interested in theirs, but it would create more drama than it's worth. Perhaps you would even get a message from them asking why they have been deleted, what they did to deserve this, and their list of reasons why you were messed up to even have considered deleting them. I have at least 2 friends on Facebook that I feel this way about.

Introducing my blog

So here I am. My name is Dreanda. I am an average girl with an average life. I never thought I would be one to create a blog. Not because I am completely against them but more because I couldn't imagine what I would ever write about. What should I say? What should I refrain from saying? Then recently I decided I just didn't care. If you want to read it and get more info about me than you ever necessarily wanted...well hey, that's on you. Or if I bore you to tears, so be it. I will write for myself or whoever wants to listen.
For this first blog I will keep things pretty tame. I will be 23 this month. I just got married last year on Aug. 7 to my lovely wife Anna. I currently take care of my 2 young cousins Sophia, who is 3 and Phebe, who is 2. I don't have a job at the time but in this economy, who does? I have 2 little chihuahuas named Tido and Cheeto who I adore.
This first post is short, I just wanted to give a brief introduction. Feel free to check back with my blog in the future while I talk about anything from life with kids, being a lesbian, my opinions on things, to being married.
I hope this will be fun!
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