Poem I wrote about my brother in law passing

This was written 5/16/08 after the death of my brother in law RD.
I was going to write more with it but this is all I have so far.




It came to me as such a shock,
when I listened to the words you had said.
There's no way it could be real,
he was just alive and now he's dead.

With a trembling hand,
and tears pouring out of my eyes.
I drove there as fast as I could,
letting God hear my desperate cries.

How could this be true?
I was with him the night before.
I wish I could have known,
what the future had had in store.

I pulled up to find a group of people,
huddled by his door.
But there you were away from them,
smoke in hand, eyes puffy and sore.

I ran to you,
as fast as my legs could go.
All I could do was hold you tight,
I had never seen you this low.

I decided I had to see him,
maybe there was something I could do.
There's still a chance that he's still there,
even though deep down I think I knew.

I walked up the stairs,
your hand firmly linked with mine.
There was nothing that could have prepared me for that moment,
where I knew things wouldn't be fine.

I saw him lying on the couch,
And I instantly fell to my knees.
Oh lord how could this be real?
Don't take him I beg you please.

I kept repeating his name,
In a wailing shaky cry,
Maybe he was only sleeping,
how could he just leave us and die?

I placed my hand on his arm,
and it was so cold for me to touch.
I stroked his hair and told him,
"RD, I love you so much."